Tuesday, December 13, 2005
well.. cant get to sleep again.. so decide to type something out here.. this is my 102nd blog.. To be honest, my blog has caused quite a stir with some of my friends, my camp superiors and even ppl i care.. At times, i really felt like quitting this fucking thing... But i'm always sticking onto the com whenever i can.. And i am nt exactly a person who writes a diary on a book or something.. So i decided nt to be a quitter.
I realise in life, u win some, u lose some. One cannot be always winning.. And i felt there are so many tests in life which god planned, to make us a better person in life.. At times, they make u reflect on yaself. At times, they make u regret on things u've done so u wont let it happen again. At times, they make u lose impt things so u will start cherishing. At times, they will make u correct all ya flaws so u will be a better person.. And all these lessons come with a hefty price.
Some ppl understands each test fast.. Some takes a longer time.. Some may retake these tests a few more times than others, some may nt.. But ultimately, god still wants us to learn our lessons. Some learn it thru the hard way. Some learn it the easy way.. Some learns it thru multiple hard ways.. But watever it is, if we do learn, god's goal is met. everything happens for a reason.
Things we do always have a cause and an effect. If the effect doenst turn out well, it may turn out to be tat there's something wrong with our efforts. But if we keep thinking that itz every other things fault instead of ours, we r actually quite a poor learner. And i admit that i do belong to this catagory at times.
Haha.. i realise that IQ alone is not enuff to survive in this world. We muz have a gd mix of IQ and EQ.. And if a person have low IQ and EQ, he's screwed.
Maybe this might sound naive and stupid. But i'm wondering why life cannot be simple? Why is there always so much clues, hints that we need to catch? Isnt it tiring? And sometimes, we r juz nt smart enuff to catch them.. And when we dont, we r screwed.. I do lost some precious friends like this.. And asked why i dun do anything abt it? Cos i'm tired... Cos the fucking problem with the world is that people are juz not frank enough.. And the best thing is we cant fault this fault! Cos circumstances have caused this to happen.. And that almost every single mother's son is like this and we have to cope with it. And this fatigue will juz keep going on with us, till we die.. Thats only when, we can finally REST IN PEACE.
Life's not from a book. Which we can study and do well. Or which we can put in a lot of effort and score well.. Itz complicated..
To all my avid readers out there.. This post is juz 4 reference.. It doesnt possess any significant meaning.. Juz my tots abt life.. So juz read it with an open mind. I hope it do give u some tots abt your lifes too...
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