Thursday, November 03, 2005
Finally, I'm leaving for Aussie tonight.. This feeling is damn fuck up. I DON WANNA LEAVE!!! *slaps myself* Why did i volunteer to go in the 1st place..... But nevermind.. What is done is done.. Juz hope for the better.. Alrite, now, hear my say.
To my friends who's having exams now.. I wish your good luck in ni men de exams. Pls do study hard. Will try 2 meet your after i come back from australia.
To C, glad tat had a little chat with u today. Finally i can say wat i wanna say to u. Hope u do understand and forgives.. I wish u gd luck in ya future endeavours. Well though he might have said certain things to u, but i can feel inside his heart, he dosent mean wat he says. What i believe is that his thoughts and actions were swayed by anger... and by those ppl who thinks they know alot, those ppl who always think they are always right.. those who assumes..(but in actual fact they are a greenhorn at it) What i can say is that nw, a lot depends on him and u. Itz up to him ultimately whether to trust his own feelings or trust the advice of others. And oso, if u really want wat u want, u need to take some actions. "some" depends on hw badly u want it... Sorry.. i cant elaborate. I hope u do understand wat i mean.
To W, I dun know if u ever reads my blog. But watever the case is, i will juz pen down my thoughts here. Well dude.. I am truthfully and sincerely very sorry abt what happen in the past. If ever one asks me whats the thing i regret doing most, i wld tell them itz wat i have done onto u. I know asking forgiveness is too much. Cos i put myself in ya shoes.. If i were u, we wldnt even be on talking terms. I've finally come to understand a lot of ya difficulties in the past. Trust me on that. : ) Wo ren ming le. Wo bu hui zai ask for more le. Even if we are juz being artificial friends nw, itz better than enemies. Alrite.. A piece of advice from me. U may think i am crapping rubbish again. But hope u wld juz give a tot to it. I hope u will trust ya own feelings.. Ya own thoughts.. ppl can give u advice.. But does those ppl really know the situation and hence give u an unbiased view? Ultimately, it depends on YOU. Cos i've been tru once. I took my fren's advice. and i screwed up big time a certain thing. Thats y, i believe itz our own decision tat matters, cos no one knows our own situation better.
To some ppl whom i used to be very close to and loves to ghost ard my blog and gives stinging comments at the back.. Can i consider that backstabbing? Yupz sorry.. i am wrong to your again... Srry Mr RIGHTS... Mr Rights, what i wanna say is that, i swear to god i wasnt angry with your at all or did i ever gave your an attitude.
To one of the Mr right. Let me give u a description on who u are. U are nt very tall.. Big sized.. U know who u are. Well i wanna say is, after the last incident, and the stuffs that u told me, i really felt that i let u down. But i gave a thought abt it. If u were nt so full of yourself, and thinks that all the god damn thing u think is right, i wld have done something. And yea.. Thanks for telling me wat u and the other Mr Right tot, and the comments made by your. Well.. Even if wat i pen down in my blog may sound contradicting, and yes u keep asking me to consider ya feeling.. U keep thinking i am unapologetic.. and have u ever give me a chance to talk after u ssaid so much to me? All u think is that i am trying to win the argument. Crazy. But did it come across ya mind that if u have always hold a some ppl so high in ya heart, but discover that u were a fool and that these ppl are talking behind ya back. How will u feel? Oh.. forgot to describe another Mr Right. U are short. Acceptable built. A person who cant walk out of ya past. Well.. Both Mr Rights.. I wld have appreciate it if your wld come and tell me wats wrong straight in the face. Rather than treating me like an idiot. Expects me to find out wats wrong and see wat i am gonna do abt it. Come'on dun u 2 think thats gal's behaviour? Be a man la. Nt happy abt wat juz say. Dun need act and behave like a gal.
To my soccer frens, well, trust me, i will be faster than ever when i come back from australia.. Do match planners... Do warn opponents abt me... Ask them dun try so hard to catch up with me to prevent themselves from injuring. Haha juz kidding. Well.. shall be back for more soccer actions.
ok lastly, to my one and only.. My gal..
Well bao bei.. i will miss u.. really. i hope i didnt need to go this trip. i regret volunteering for it. But well. i hope u do take care of yaself. Somethings i shall tell u when i see u later. Ok.. I love u. Muackz!
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