Sunday, August 21, 2005
Something struck my thoughts again. Though i tot of it b4, but now tat i noe more, i realised it some things really cannot be explained.
In the past, i was wondering why heaven is so cruel to me. Befalling all the bad stuffs on me. Presenting fates and chances which i never cherish. Often these left me regretting. I used to blame heaven for playing me ard. Treating me like a fool. I used to hate him. But now, itz nt the case anymore. Why do i say this? Cos....
I discover that god actually path out the route for my relationship with 'EJECT'. Everything falls so nicely in place. The events that happened. Everything. really... everything. It looked like someone planned it out. Sorry, but i decide nt to blog out the events tat happen. Cos i've learnt that sometimes, somethings, itz betta to be kept within.
It began to make sense why god was so cruel to me in the past. He wanted me to learn... Learn to take initiative. Learn to take opportunities. Learn to cherish. The reason behind those near misses was that he can see that those gals werent the ones for me. He was actually my hero for rescuing me but i blamed him for playing me in the past.
He has constantly been watching over me and answering me prayers without me knowing it and i blamed him for neglecting me. Now seeing the stuffs that happened which made us together and keeps us together, i can only say i am sorry god. And thank u in some ways.
Everyday is a new learning process. Today i learnt something new. I learnt that fate does exist. And now i will learn to cherish more.
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